Our time here in these bodies is short. Why do we spend so much of it peacocking, posturing, and one-upping? Why do we fill our precious minutes comparing, positioning, and straining?
I know my culture tells me that I have to differentiate myself from you. My survival instincts and the cultural collective — they command me to play chess with my personal relationships and focus on coming out ahead. Or at least capitalizing on every interaction.
I pray that I can become free of this curse.
May I never forget that this very breath is a gift.
Help me to love.
Help me extend comfort and joy and caring.
Why is this so hard to do?
We are beloved children of God. We have been free and forgiven since before our first breath.
Our harmless flaws and imperfections are beloved and our hurtful transgressions are unnecessary.
Only human senses and the voice of the accuser — Satan — can define us by these things.
But God only sees the anointed one in us, no matter how much damage we inflict or how far we think we stray.
God, help keep me turned to you. And help me remember that this is impossible if I don’t turn towards my siblings here on Earth.
This lament was first published in The Jonas Letters.