It’s impossible for the mind to consciously let anything go. It’s like trying not to think of a turquoise zebra. Impossible.
I’m no neuroscientist, but it seems to me that the mind needs something to chew on. It can only do things. It can’t undo them.
It can never ‘not be’.
So this is why…
The only way to release something or let it go is to accept it.
I know they used to tell me in meditation class to see the thoughts in your head and let them go. Well, I was fine with the first part of that instruction, but always got stuck on the second. The harder I’d try to let that thought go, the more it hung around. Which lead to frustration. Which lead to an intensity of that thought.
It was a train wreck. Every time.
But maybe that’s just me.
Anyhow, what I eventually learned is to not try to ‘let a thought go’.
But embrace it.
And accept it.
Look at it.
Be with it.
Envelop the thought in the warm embrace of your awareness. Remember, there’s nothing too big for awareness. Awareness can handle anything. So look at it. No matter how uncomfortable it might be — the more your awareness graces it without adding any additional personal thought to it — the more it melts away.
Sit comfortably in the cosmic conundrum that you can be comfortable in your discomfort.
As soon as the mind accepts it, it will move on.
I still can’t get that turquoise zebra out of my head, though. Damn it.